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Hi! I'm Jim Creech
Dear Fellow Amputees,
It is a known fact that a large percentage (85%) of amputees live with physical pain and a number of emotional problems in their lives.
7 years ago, I became a bilateral Below Knee Amputee. The road from then to now for me has been a very hard, very difficult road. I suffer from Severe Chronic Residual Limb Pain – but this wasn't the main part of my suffering.
A great deal of it came from stress and from my 'screwed up brain'.
For the first four months after my surgery, I was in a cloud of drugs. I was having a ball - in nah nah land. My family tells me stories of the funny and sometimes dangerous things I did because of these drugs and the pain. Some parts of my story ARE hilarious and you'll read about them in the RAG. It took me a long while for the full impact of having no legs - to sink in.
When it finally did sink in - my reaction was something like this.
SHIT! DAMN IT! WHAT DO I DO NOW?
Not long after the operation the relationship with my wife of 36 years was crumbling. We fought as if we couldn't stand each other – and looking back, I'm surprised anyone could stand me.
Before my surgery, I had been co-founder of a brand new restaurant. After my surgery, the project failed.
I eventually moved out of my house for a while (in a moment of anger and pride) but soon came back unable to do things for myself.
When I came crawling back, my youngest daughter wasn't shy…she let me know how much of a failure I was turning out to be and how she wished I would just leave for good. My wife and I moved into separate bedrooms. I went bankrupt.
I was just having a ball!
B.S. I was going through HELL!
**If anyone is still interested in what's happened between my wife and I - you must continue reading?
Me - A Failure?- Again? Oh boy!
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